Monday, May 25, 2009

Exams are not yet over

Hurray ….the exams are over now. I will be having lots of free time. Now I can chat with friends for hrs and now I can spend hrs on facebook. In last two months my whole daily routines were crashed due to the exams. Neither I could update my blog nor could I chat long with friends….But now……wow…lots of free time……..While I was preparing for the exam I had made a list of to do things…..I can now complete them.

But how were the exams. Leave it man…………you have just completed them…the results will tell. But during the whole exam period one thing always hitted me hard “ ……..had I gone extra mile……had I read little more during the free time…….” I think this happens with all in every exam. You are never satisfied with your preparations……… you always regret in the last hours of preparations. “Why didn’t I go through detail on this chapter when I had lots of free time? Why I went to that party…….instead of that if I had gone through this chapter………? ” So and so……..You regret very much for each and every minutes you wasted. The regret becomes much severe if there comes a question in exam from the chapter you haven’t read thoroughly. You know on which book and on which handout answer of this particular question lies but you don’t know what the answer is. At that moment the only thing you can do by sitting on the exam hall is biting your pen and regretting the time you have wasted.

And another problem that I faced is when you are preparing for exams you feel like watching TV, you feel sleepy immediately after having dinner and you feel like going to movie with friends. And at that time you think if there were no exams………………… And today exams are over and guess what. I don’t feel like sleeping………… “Ajha jhan exam sakiyeko din nindrai lagdaina…….”. What to do…….I don’t have sleeping tablets. A good idea………….I went to my cupboard took out a book of epidemiology then started to read. Guess what happened……..I felt asleep in five minutes……………..A good replacement for sleeping tablet

But are my exams over………….? Oh no…what a silly thought I had. Still I have another six months to work on thesis. I think this will be tougher than my theory exams. Besides……….how can anyone’s exams be over just by appearing on a month long written exams ………….I still have many exams to appear ahead in my life………I will be having exams in each and every moment of my life. There will be someone, somewhere always evaluating me based on my performance, based on my language, based on my communication……so and so. Then how can I say that my exams are over. It was my foolishness to say exams are over……….finally I have reached the conclusion that exams are not yet over……………